VALERY♥

Its been some time since I blog.
EOY is round the corner. I've no idea how prepared am I for it.
Pretty sure there's math test tmrw.
I'm not a bit prepared.
Had been skipping Friday sessions.
I see no point in attending.
I'm sick and tired of the same old thing all over again.
I'm tired of ppl telling me not to do this and that, but they themselves are not doing what they say.
Accept flaws of each other?
Please, don't talk big to me when you ppl cannot do it.
Making a mountain out of a molehill.
Play politics? I'll play along.
I've a gazillions things to rant about.
My own classmates are way better than you guys. Everywhere I go is about being a family.
No, I don't feel it.
The only time I felt being part of a family, is when I'm with Vivian and Dene.
They're truly ppl who accepted me for who I am.
Never once had they jump into conclusions.
Ppl I trust do that.
They listen to me.
Ppl I trust don't listen.
Time goes by, I'm tired of always having to explain myself.
Explain my stand. Explaining and explaining a whole lot of crap.
I explained. Ppl I trust, don't bother to listen.
What's the point?
You ppl won't be classified as ppl I trust anymore.
I still have one more person, please, tell me you are not like the others.
Tell me that the image of you being the understanding is still there.
Dislike me?
Get the fk out of my sight. Thanks.
Problems come one after another.


I'm feeling lazy to look for a picture.
So no picture.
Ok, i'm like attempting to save $550.
Which i need 4months to do so. :/
Wish me luck in doing that man.
HAHA. Oh well, this week other than teachers' day concert, nothing's good.
Seriously. Thank god it's holiday next week.
But gonna study like some mad woman.
Starting from ytd, i covered 2 chapters of chemistry.
Gonna do up some amath later on.
Busy day tmrw.
Tuition at 8.30 till 11.
Study date at 11.30 till about 4plus or 5?
then outing with councils. :D
Awesome max. Can't wait.
haha. Gonna just bring 10bucks out tmrw.
Refrain myself from spending -.-
Lol. I've got things to collate. But i don't have any information with me.
Shall do it once i get it from Adilah.
Hmm, nothing much. Sums up everything.
EOY's coming.
I'm going crazy. haha.



This week had been hell for me.
So many instances which really me feel like giving up.
Breaking down is like a few more steps ahead of me.
Very tired. Mentally. Physically.
Putting on a facade telling ppl i'm alright when deep inside me, i'm dying.
Losing faith. Losing hope.
Knowing that whatever i'm doing isn't helping.
Situation in school isn't ideal.
Neither is it at home.
In school, school work is giving me loads of problems.
Results which are really disappointing despite the hard work i put in.
At home. I suddenly realise that my parents don't understand me at all.
All they care is my results. results. results.
Never once do they stop and ask me if i'm fine coping with my studies.
Never once do they ask me if i'm tired.
Never once they know i cried.
C'mon, my peers and teacher understand me better than them!
Ironic.
So hell tired.
So afraid i cannot pull thru sec3 Exp.
Urgh.

So tired I feel like dying.
Tell me where I can hide from this cruel reality.


ALRIGHT! Busy Valery is back in action to blog.
Busy weeks, and yes another one up ahead.
Fell sick last week. Completely lost my voice on wed. ):
And i realise how important my vocal is.
Nope, not using it to sing...
It really suck to have to use hand gesture/ writing it down to commmunicate with someone.
And, well, Vivian and Fel are happy, why?
Cause i won't be bothering them mah! D<
Anw, yeah, pretty ok now. Still on medication though...
And at least i know who really care for me at that period of time...
Hmmm. Tests. Tests. Tests.
Frankly speaking, i'm kinda fed up with all this CA tests.
One after another. When will this end man?
This week isn't any better. Definitely not want to take anymore test.
However, i've no choice. :/
If i'm able to survive last week, this week will not be a problem.
Yeah?
Anw, today is one of the enjoyable day.
HAHA. Great experience. Well, not being in blazer feeling very hot.
But seeing how primary school kids present things.
When i'm their age, i wouldn't be able to do that. seriously. haha
They speak very well. (:
Took pictures (as in alot) with fellow excos. (Y)
Damn cool. Fel should be the happiest lah. HAHA.
After that went down to Pasir Ris central CC for some dialogue session.
Pretty cool. But boring too. ):
After that, ok, i think i totally embarrassed myself can?!
One of the minister, Mr Micheal (something) lol, asked me to join in the photoshoot with ALL the ministers.
Obviously, i said no and shake my head.
He went like, 'C'mon join in!'
I inisisted that theres no need to. After that, he attempted to imitate me.
Like ohmygod! and ALL the ministers saw it!
Damn embarrassing TO.THE.MAX.
Overall, it was fine and cool.
PS: being in blazer is really very hot! ):
Haha, okok, shall blog till here.
At least i updated my blog. :)
kthxbye





Alright, back blogging.
This week was kinda ok...
Conflicts happens, but it's resolved. i think.
Test week again. Totally crap.
And i'm dead for chem test.
Failed both phy and bio test.
However there;s good news, i passed my amath. :)
Not good enough. Hopefully i'll improve. :D
Not feeling well for the past one week. And yes, now i'm having a bad sore throat.
And a splitting headache. );
Cannot fall sick now. Many many things i've yet to settle manz.
Sighs...
Can't wait for next sunday. Then minister visit.
Hopefully it's gonna be fun. :D heehee.
At least a day that i don't need to stay home, yeah? LOL
yeah, alright shall do my own things now.
Bye.
Look Vivian! OUR PHOTO!:D